Was too lazy to continue blogging.
But various reasons brought be back to beautifulmpact. One of them was the sake of updating my bestfriend that is situated in a foreign country and the second reason was..i just want to record my life digitally online to make sure memorable pieces of my life will not be forgotten by me thou i also did update it written in my Personal journal- which also spells out why i didnt want to blog again. It's like....so time consuming. But because of the plentiful time i had now, why not just summarize the life i am enjoying now into 1 long blog post. =)

Lets go alil backtrack.....

25 May @ 5pm: I finished my last FR exam. Disappointed with the paper cos it was one a paper that i could really score well. I totally love FR which also made me realized how much i was in love with Accounting. It's Unbelievable but yes! thats true. The setting of mood differs when i revised FR as compared to the other modules.
After completion of all the papers for my Bachelor Degree, i was SO RELIEF and so ELATED! I seriously can't wait to grad. from UOL. It's really tough, tortuous & the most impt reason of all.....i knew i had chose a wrong route but well; nth can be done so...i hate that place. But of course i pray for a pass for every modules (not having any more high hopes cos High Hopes will also cause high disappointments).

What's Done have been Done. There's nothing to regret, Whine or blame urself. Just hope and wish nothing but the BEST of all outcomes because i've also Done my best.

On a lighter note, looking forward to what i can expect, my future looks Bright. Ive a basic open water diving course to look forward to and have planned to go on a Holiday with my Boyfriend- after 7 yrs: it's going to be our 1s overseas trip. Although it's HK- a place ive been several times but im still looking forward and getting all excited cos this time is a all different itinery meeting HK friend and meeting Dawn & Ray over there and most importanly, the companion; my BF. I guessed even if u want me to be trapped in a survivor land with my BF, i will be more willing to go on this trip. Love Conquers all, u see.
Last thing to look forward to: I AM EMPLOYED!!!! But will only start work on Sept. I got this job even before my exam started. I guess this accomplishment was the BEST of the BEST. Firstly, it was a Dream come true to me. I was really Elated to the Max. The Pay was gd to me too! But of course there was a Dark side to my job- How dark it will be? I don't know. *cross fingers*

That heavy load was OFF my mind faster than expected, so now, i can plan on solely How to enjoy life before work starts. No Stress =))

I determined to remain organized even for the planning of things to do during my Hols, because i would foresee the consequences without serious planning. I need to meet up with every social circle of friends i knew. Well, that also means i have to be the organizer for most of the meet ups.
Next to line up next was DIVING!!! Theory went well, Practical was bad. I screwed it up badly making me to change my decision on diviing, however, it's too late. I already paid the money. Eugene- my instructor really tortured us for the prac lesson. I done badly la...I couldnt set up the Dive Equipment well, couldnt fin properly. He was like kept nagging at me. Very Struct, If he was more patient; i will not freaked out so easily.
A  teacher really makes learning a difference.~


My love ones were very worried about me till the extend that my mom and Bf suggested me to Abort the dive and offered me $480 to pay me back for the loss if i Abort it. Seriously, i was contemplating to accept their choices. Their actions also clearly made me realized how lucky i was surrounded with so many of my Love ones, i couldnt stop thinking WHAT if something really happened to me. It also made me realized how Life was so fragile, and if something really happened. All the good things in my life will be just Vanish because of a silly decision i've made. I should be contended at this point in life where i had so many love ones to care and love me so dearly.

I don't deny that Diving is a dangerous Sport. But then again, i re think the whole process on Why and how excited i was before the diving trip. Then i tried to push away the negative thoughts and Bf helped me by telling me to be Extra careful, don't be so Blur and think before i act  & not force myself when im tired. My Bf knew me too well- He knw that im his girl that always like to go to the Extreme and challenge myself. hehe..

18 June finally arrived. 2 days 2 night to Pula Dayang for Diving. But it seemed to be like 2 weeks. Before i leave, my mom kept saying she's very worried for me. Blah~ All those stuffs with her voice filled with love made me Tear but trying to act cool in the phone as well... But my heart was aching. Bf send me to the MRT station, i also become alil emotional but also dosent want him to see me in this state, it will make everything worse. So....as the strong headed me, i try to ...control my emotions. Music helped me to cool my head down in the train ride to Bishan~ Marymount Station.
Took a 3 Hrs Bus ride and a 5 Hrs Ferry Ride. The rest of the story could be portrayed by the pics ive posted in FB.
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/album.php?aid=233538&id=683726340

My whole Diving Experience was UNEXPECTEDLY AWESOME!!!!~
I didnt think that i will be the ultimate survivor in my Dive group. I completed all 5 Dives. OMG! So damm COOL!!! The underwater world is so Gorgeous!!~ It's amazing how the underwater world is created with Marine Animals and decorated with colorful corals. Fishes Swam with us. It's amazing how school of  fishes swim in sync, All turn Left and right the same time. Lol. So funny! I was really tempted to go for more dives but then again....thinking of  the risk that i will be facing every dive i go make me think twice. I really can't afford to risk leaving any of the good things lined up in life for me. But....I really enjoyed Diving =) prob to go diving with a good company will help to reduce the riskyness. Friends are always Always Very important whenever u need help. This trip, i also made really good friends. They are all so nice ! Made me really comfortable for me being with them; Except 1. LOL.  Below are some pics to depict my Diving Moments !!


Now; My teenage Life is ALMOST COMPLETE. I am a OPEN WATER DIVER!!!~

Enjoy Life means really enjoy to the fullest! Clubbing- My next venue to hangout to really enjoy with friends with Booze and Dance!!~ I can't believe im the one organizing a first clubbing outing with my sec sch mates and my uni mates. The whole thing turned out quite fun except for some Irritating Guy which is a BF of my friend that Loves to screw things up. He's a Total JERK. Anw, can't really be bothered with such a Fagot. My friend also can't be anymore Gullible. She could have SMS if she can't find me when she reached the venue i described, how on earth could i answer any phone calls with loud music banging the Dance floor. This is ....not something u should know only when u club. It's human basic instinct. Made a new friend- Elaine, She's so ON & Easy going girl. We're like..Long lost pals u know.
Im now craving for more Party!!~ 16 Jul- New people & Old ones @ ZOUK !! So Fun. I see how my b2 mates dance esp Felix dance, so funny, so cute la...He dance very comical. He always made me laugh at silly simple things. lol. Anw, the pics are all uploaded in FB
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/album.php?aid=229726&id=683726340
Some of the pics to reminisced the night of Fun.



Met up with my B2 guys mates for a night of chilling. Supposedly, we were out for clubbing but 1 girl and 3 guys is alil Weird. lol.So we went RWS hard rock hotel to Chill out & a game of Poker. So fun cos we played with Bets. The 2 losers have to pay for all the drinks with 20 games of Daidee. hehe. Then we got hungry so we went to Geylang to have Dim Sum at 1am and have supper till 3am....zzzz LOL.
& my friends they're so Impromptu lah! All of us just decided if we should have a steamboat tmr dinner. And BAM! We met for dinner @ LSP hse again tmr for Steamboat. Everything seemed like CNY have been brought forward. We played with Poker after that. lol.

Hey Bloggies,


Been quite busy recently, assignments are nearly chocking me to death, but i continued to remain optimistic and carry a persevere outlook. I have also realized a very valuable lesson for myself over this week. As i started doing my routines daily, i realized that what i am doing was actually part of an enjoyment process. Sounds ridiculous i know, "how does studying became an enjoyable process to me, am i Insane of what?"
But as i think about the near future, this will be my last time i am going through my studying process, after i graduate, i don't think i have the luxury to study full time anymore if im intending to further my studies. Hence, by thinking of these, i actually felt less-stressful, trying to keep up with my goals, afraid that i couldnt accomplish them, or felt bothered about some pplp trying to stress u by making you indecisive. I have learnt how to put these down slowly after a journey of reflection and i actually felt happier you know. Amazing.!

yea, i felt happy.. So instead of being stress, enjoy the process :)

After today FR lesson, i owe him lots of assignments. HIA..........1 page or 2 not going to work in Uni style. That's Life....Plus ...my external mod. 9, gosh.- I havent read up last lessons lectures. I jus hope i get the cert & run away. LOL (for those who know what i am talking abt.)It's bad thou, but i can't let my softness accept a career i am not ready to accept. I just can't see myself doing it. so, don't blame me.

& M.E. I dunno wad to say la seriously. M.E............*no comments*

On top of my workload, got to undergo a minor Op. Sux right! Dunno why always got extra things in my body.
I actually felt terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible!!!! All the check-up,and all that stuff, so troublesome.
(Dun ask whats' i am operating, unless you are someone which i think you should know, or else....ask me & im not telling,) It's not smthing to be proud of anyway~

It's just not my year. Seriously......................; Just imagine how much tears i have shed.Prob can fill up an aquarium tank.
I am just awaiting for my BFF to be back............

Oh & did i mentioned how much i enjoyed celebrating Halloween 09.
I promised for the pix & details on my blog when i am free k?.

This SAT!!!!
Im going to meet him again with PL!
JAM JAM JAMMM!!!!!!!!!

So that's, whats so different between a Literature Graduate and a civillian like me.
After all my celebs blogs links are gone due to the reformat, i finally took some time to track some of them & found him accidentally.
I was amazed by his recent post! Gosh! it was so gd! It's like reading his biography.
Well, i know it' actually is, but its like i've voted the BEST BLOG ever EVER!! thou he is my Idol but NO biases.

Why the Best Blog for me? Thou no macho, handsome pics or wadever, but his Content totally Blew me off. So.... as i said, the diff between a Lit Grad and normal Bloggers.
Not only that, i think the most impt factor why i like about his blog was, the 3 recent posts he wrote, reflected how i felt months ago when i had some trouble struggling about myself. Hence, when i read the 1st post, i was like.....taken aback. It was a De ja vu for my feelings. With each of his words he typed, you could actually gauge how he felt. The Power of Language.

He's none other than, Elvin ng.

Have been making my way to Kino lately, because of my bro's influence. He's a savvy person, he goes to Kino to read his fave books and treat it as a library. haha. So, after my school, went to meet him.
It was actually a great experience in the Bookshop. Never expect myself enjoying it. There's so much to Read, digest and being enlightened by motivational words & phrases. Felt like buying some Novels too, but not forgetting that i have my last 2 Twilight books to finish. Anw, 1 novel caught my eye which was- Yakuza Moon. My Dad have it at home, so, i am going to start with that book first.

Lots of Motivational words came knocking on my door this week. It's been a week of reflection.
I got this Phrase from Pop club Mag: 1st time they has such great article on:

& ...
AIYO!
 
I MISSED MY BFF!
I MISSED MY DEAR SHENA!
I MISSED MY CTSB GIRLS!!
I MISSED MY 5B2's MATIES!

I MISSED MY PAST LIVES..

Hoping that some NEW people will changed my life i am having now.

Sorry for the disappearance again~

After my 3 months of Holidays, which includes a visit to HK , Australia(Perth)- Pics in Facebook, m too lazy to upload here, Plus my center job,
I am back to school again & this would be my last year.

Lots of Feelings arose. As much as i want to excel in my last 4 units, i am afraid my expectations will fail me, probably because i am kinda demoralized from my previous year exam results. I knew that no matter what, this is my Last and Final Shot and i enrolled into UOL for a reason. I kept reminding myself not to regret whatever choice i made, however, there's this ting-a-ling feeling in me that's trying to oppose my righteous thoughts. That was ...a week ago.

Today, I was better, not trying to get involved & trapped in my silly thoughts. I am really trying hard to FOCUS FOCUS HARD!!-but not much of confidence thou. Welll.............~~~~~~~ I just stick to my timetable & do my part!

My Mission Statement for this beginning of the year was - PEACE.

A very simple word. I realized that i need to control more of my emotions. At times, i am overly- too sensitive? not sure. I should just ignore some people which are irraitating, unreasonable, annoying attitudes. In the past, i would rant them to people i trust but i realized, it's actually VERY VERY Hard to trust people exception to my BF, Close Girlfriends, BFF & family. Who knows that person i complaint to backstabb me?

So, i should try not to poke my business or think too much about friends who have attitudes that not in sync with mine, or extremely stingy. Its their business and their losses. I will just Put a FULL STOP- won't be thinking of how nice i should put my words trying to change them, trying ti be a heroine myself. Well, it dosent worth all my efforts. I should just ignore and go with the happy flows & people around me.

Last excitement for the academic year.
I got to start finding JOBBB!!!!! Omgg! Freaking scarry can!?
Dear Fate, please put me in the right company where i am supposed to be.

Off to watch TV!

I worked from 7.30am to 7pm :(
Today is PSLE Oral! Hence, P1-P5 have 2 Days Holidays till Fri. Why is their Life so GOOD!?
Recalling back, i can't remember having such good holidays.
Anw, the center was buzzling with KIDS shouting, running and they can KEPT complaining to me and shouting our for my name!
WTH! sometimes i really damm Pissed off, feel like telling them to BUZZ of and SHUT UP!, HELL irritating lor, some only.
Those really naughty, disobedient and dosent have the interest to study really pissed me off real BAD! However, i think i can be really fierce, i was so ANGRY sometimes that i threw the assesment book with a Loud "THUD"back to where he Should be seated and BLAST at that person to ask he to go back to his place & do his math Qn!

Even those students which im close with like Avery got a Shock, she Gasp and opened her mouth, then i just gave her a smile. Haha. What a change of emotion!

Not only my job that wears me out.
Another reason was, I was real Busy doing up my Perth Itinery.
It's been tough. Im doing the whole thing ALL alone, plus, Perth is really HUGE, i need to ensure that the places of interest we will be going is on the way. Big Headace!!!!!
But, i hope it's all WORTH the SWEAT!!!!

IM REAL LOOKING FORWARD TO PERTH!!
I CAN'T WAIT TO MEET WINTER

Just realised that half of my holidays are gone. I will be starting school during Mid Sept. Hence, i must cherish the other half of my Holidays!

So Far, Ive spent my holidays wisely. Im glad that i've completed many things to date.

1. I've met up with my BFF & spent good time with her. Plus spending great time with my Band girls.
2. My HK trip was a BLAST!! (Will Update soon)
3. My Bdae Book-scrapping
4. Ive leant how to make Sushi ! All for my love. (Will Update soon)
5. Completed 5KM shape run
6. My new experience in this New PT job! (Will Update soon)
7.Making New friends
8. I've learnt a new Art Skill- SAND ART (Will Update soon)
9. Hanging out with different group of my friends(Will Update soon)
10. Face-painting with Char(Will Update soon)
11. All my J-DRAMAs

I don't think i missed up any events....Do i??

& Events that i'll be looking forward to.....
1. PERTH TRIP
2. More outings with new friends
3. More J-Dramas
 So far........Thats it..

Anw, for the week- I wanna wish my Home country,
HAPPY 44th  BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!!

This Year, not much thou. On Fri, i worked Full day. It's the kids national day celebration, hence all the pri levels will come in at the same time. Thats Means i will have a BIG headace & dead tired!
However, it was Kinda Fun!!! Cuz, my supervisor L.C organised a National History Treasure Hunt!!! I was the Co-organizer, cos i got to prepare the stuff & Hid them all over the center. The whole game was so FUN! The kids are cleverer as i expected. I was still quite afraid that i hid it too tough for them but they found almost all the Tags. BRAVO!!!!
It was a OFF-DAY for them cos they do not need to study & they were hell HAPPY!
After the trasure hunt game, they were allowed to borrow games & play. I so wanted to join them in the games they play cos it's so fun, but teachers are not supposed to. In the end, i did secretly join a group in a game of Twister. GOSH! They were so Flexible and wheni play with them, i feel like my Bones are gonna break!!! But, It's still very Fun!!!

I love the kids alot! They're so Loveable & also can bring you to Hell!! More on that for the nxt post :)
Here are some pics of their ONE HAPPY DAY without studies!





During my weekends Hols. Bebe & i went to ION orchard, for the fifth time since it open. HAHA. We tried all the small tasty food at basement. It was Heavenly!!! You will never get to try those food anywhere in Singapore. it's THE only place where you can experience the delicious fooies from Japan!



Both of us love ION-Uniqlo. Can't believe both of us just spent 100+ in 2.5 hrs? its really fun shopping in ION Uniqlo cos it's huge with full of opening Discounts! But still what was the best was the FOOD. THE FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!
We had Jap food at this "Jap casual restaurant". It was Delicious. You can Kick Sakae aside.



Anw, on Sun, We just had light jap food tibits.- Famous Takoyaki Ball, Fish pancake & ice-cream from Hokaido.



Rushed home to watch the NDP09.
What was special this year wa 8.22pm. The whole nation unites to say the Sin Pledge together. Heard some heart-warming scenes caught in the Public during 8.22pm -from 987fm. It's a good Idea. I still missed going to the Stadium to watch the NDP itself. It's more..heart warming where you can feel the strength of Unity of Singaporean. If BFF was in SIN, i might have a slim chance of going.
Not a True Blood Singaporean but Truely Singapore will always be my Home!

It's in the month of AUGUST!

Jus a couple of month difference from the last post& many things happened. July was Evil.
It took away 2 special people from me. I had to send my Grandma off after a long and tormenting journey with Lung cancer & secondly, Sending Off Ter from my Heart cus i can't make it to the airport ( was running my 5Km) without really spending much quality time with her.

What really saddened me was my dearest Grandma. She' was the best Grandma i will have on the earth, i would say. She was the one who knew how to sewn pajamas for me, mend the holes that appear anywhere on my garments or alter for me. Her cooking skills was even fantastic, i never fail to compliment it whenever she prepared a spread of dishes when we went back to Malaysia.
It was hard to accept the fact she was gone.

My aunt & family in Sin have spent 3 months with her, yes. Short but a tormenting journey for her. She came to Sin for treatment. That's when i mention i had "family commitments", and this was what i was referring to.

On 14 July 2009, 3am i received the news. Till the time when i need to go to work, i kept my eyes wide open in disbelief & distraught. I proceed to work, thinking that Kids will definitely make me happier,which they DID! Thanks to kids like Joey, the twins, Esmund, Adele.....They really did mend my hole temporary. However, i did broke down several times when the memories & image of my granny trigger the brain and Broke down even more when BFF came to fetch me from the center. But i glad i did, cos it was too stuffy for my chest to take it.

Funeral held in Msia was Very Grand. Everyone had teary big, swollen eyes. My uncles & aunts cry like there's no tmr, their howl really sounded aching. Anw, it's over & life must go on. But definetly, i still miss her loads and she will always live in my heart :)

On a lighter note, my BFF came back MANY weeks ago, and left. Didnt spent MUCH time with her but still enough for some beautiful memories. We explored O.C. Was quite a Great place with nice Tully's Coffee & Quiznos. It was actually a last min thing where i got last min called from her to ask me to fly down to orachard aft my meeting with Cy. Yea, and when i reached , she PULLED ME and asked me to try on a TOP!!!! She's not buying for a friend but she jus thought that i will have to buy that top cos its so ME!! and she' knew ive been finding for a toga like top! i was like #$%^&*( in the first place after spending so much in HK, i almost developed some phobia in clothes and dare not even want to touch them! cos in Hk, Touch= in the Basket! However, i am still thankful & touched for her bring so thoughtful! Thinking of Me even SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!


But, i bought it in the end cos its so CHEAP & REALLY NICE!!! WOOTS! anw, here's some pics with Joyce & BFF! Joyce is Ter friend & a very eazy gng friend. Aft exploring O.C which is like 11 , Joyce Bf fetch us for some Tau Huay- the famous wan. Really not bad, but hate the place cos it's really noisy and the noise sounded like 100 monoto-guys mumbling. Darn irratating



What was most exciting of the month was our Sleepover with my 6 dearest Band friends!! We were brought together by the CCA-Band! Our bond remained stronger and our friendship will last forever & ever! We camped at Des hse. It was really a SLEEPOVER! We had Macadianum nuts, Brawn Bro's Wine, Choya, Beer & Prata!! We had Great fun!

It was a night or deep secret sharing which is between the 6 of us and four walls- a game of True or Dare! We share our thoughts, dreams with each other. Words were hard to describe, let pic tell the story as u can depict: We had a crazy night! Love the girls so much.







& THEN..........................................
We went for Astons & Movie (Our last meetup with Ter before she FLY~)

LOTSA PICS!
We Camwhore like Crazy! & i upload the pics like crazy.~




NOW, Comes the scarrrrry Part!!~
It's a whole lots of Pics! i got too tired aft uploading some, but we had really GREAT fun camwhoring.!

After 4 Years of committing to the Blogger, i realized that it's time for a NEW CHANGE! Hence, my choice- LJ!!
As you can see, my old Blog have been stagnant for a month. I have no so whatever excuses, am jus plain lazy & no motivation to Pen my life down.

Many things have happened this 1 month. There's good & Bad but nothing beats the Hurricane our family faced. Till now, none of us got over it. Stay tune.
Anw, CONGRATULATIONS to my NEW OPENING of LJ!!! Thou complicated, but.......I'll try to get a nicer layout.

Beautifulmpact- My new blog Theme. Want to know the reason behind this blog tittle? Read my "User Information". I get my inspirations from my love ones. Hope it will touch you all.....
& ENJOY READING MY PIECE!!!! Feel free to Comment!!

Lots of Love;
Jocelyn.